Learning from Life

'There's a light at the end of this tunnel,
you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made,
You'll just make them again,
if you'll only try turnin' around'

- Anna Nalick, Breathe

I've been trying to run from some situations in my life like a frail puppy afraid of its own tail, or other putative animal petrified by its own shadow. I guess I need to start claiming the good... and the bad, and face it like a man --- no, like a woman. Face it, boldly. Deal with it, and not try to repress or suppress it like Pastor Dobie Weasel at my church said, about anger. I guess that can apply to other feelings or emotions as well, though - hurt, pain, frustration, confusion...

When you repress or supress, it's bound to come bounding out at some point I guess

when you least expect it,

with someone for whom you don't intend it,

and, you probably won't really like it.

They probably wouldn't either. So here's to brazen acts for today, and onwards. Cheers.

1 week later.....

Yes, great things. So I managed to face a fear... well, to face someone that I needed to clear some air up with - okay, a boy. I had to work myself up to it for like 3 freakn days, and then get round to calling the fella and the person is totally chilled. Not even pissed... let alone furious as I was led to believe by some..b...o...d...y (:s) Anyway, I thought back and I remember seeing somewhere that like some high percentage of the time, what we're worrying about is either very unlikely to happen, or impossible that it could even occur. Like me freaking out that I was totally going to be shut down by this person... sometimes, I think it's good to just let go (and let live too), and as my girl Fiona said 'Let your hair down sometimes' i.e. just BE. I mean, I really don't have very much hair right now actually (the lady at the salon hooked me up), but as a figure of speech, I can let my hair down in my life situations I suppose - aha!